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Geez, destiny is CRUEL!

I've just read in Matsusaya.vox that Aiba went to a zoo in Yogya, it was my grandparents place and sometimes I went there!

no, god, please, don't give me such an irony. I work my ass off and went to Japan and can't see any of them, and they (at least one of them) went to my place? 一切殺してください！

I think it's impossible for me to see the winter concert. I ask a lot of Japanese friends and they say Johnny's related concerts's ticket is usually hard to get, even for Japanese. but I haven't given up yet for the spring concert and summer concert (if exist).

next year is my last chance.

I thought about many things and after I go back to Indonesia, the chance is almost impossible to go back to Japan.

first of all, going to Japan is difficult. for me it's either scholarship or marrying Sho. second, I think after all of this Japan experience, I want to move on to something new. I've been crazy about Japan for over six years. I had reached everything I wanted and it's time to wake up from my beautiful dream and start taking responsibility as an adult.

going back and graduate and hope to secure a job. 今まで、好きなことしかやらない私は、そろそろ夢から目をさめなきゃいけないよね。

any of you ever feel like that? graduating will be the end of one period of my life, and I'm both scared and excited about life after that.

WARNING!! Iwojima kara no Tegami SPOILER!

THIS IS A SPOILER!!!! please don't read it if it would spoil your fun in watching. it's just me not being able to hold back to tell people what I saw today. but before the spoiler, the drabble first:

I don't like waking up early. And it's raining today, waking up to a cold morning is not the best way to begin my day. but hey, today is Iwojima's roadshow start, so I get out from my dormitory at 8 since the theater is nowhere near, and I thought the earliest show is 9.40.

by the time I reach the station, I couldn't feel my hands. I know I should've brought gloves. then, I got shocked by the long line in front of the theater. It's not even 9! could it be I got no chance? when I asked some people, it turns out some of them wants to watch bushi no ichibun. kimutaku is surely strong.

so I got the ticket, it's 10.20. reminded by a very familiar feeling, I haven't got breakfast yet, so I got a grab in nearest McD. I am so excited and scared at the same time. what if it's not as good as people say? It's not that I don't believe in him, I know he'll be great, but great is not enough when you face people like Watanabe Ken and Ihara Tsuyoshi (they're really had "kakkoii" written on their forehead).

before the movie started, I spotted two (probably junior high) girls in front row holding jun and sho's uchiwas. eeeh~?! why not nino??

the seats are not 100% full, but this is good for 10.20 and a war movie. a lot of elders came. for the emotional part. a lot of youngsters came. part of responsibility as Arashi fans (like me?)?

when the movie ended and I got out, I found VERY long line of people wants to see Iwojima. I'm glad I wake up early and got the first show.

 

spoiler!

nino lives on!!!! well, he probably get slayed soon after, but I prayed so much saigo would come back to his wife and daughter. the end was american soldier catch him, but the war is over so they didn't kill him, they even take care of his wound. saigo just won't be the same person anymore.

everyone else died. Kase Ryo done good, but Nakamura Shidou's a bit exaggerating (hell, who am I to speak?). and I didn't know that Ihara Tsuyoshi is my type. everything about Watanabe Ken is kakkoii, I can't be objective about him either.

it's a movie about two side, Ken-san is the leader, part of those who know what this war is for. those who think deeply and everything. Saigo is like the lowest soldier, those who listen to commands. those who got into this because they were supposed to. saigo did his best to stay alive, yet it was after he decided not to run anymore, he got saved.

I had to admit, I missed a lot of words. I really have to study more. and being a fangirl, I couldn't focus at anything else when Nino is on screen. I love him, but I also love good movies, and not being able to become objective is ridiculously disturbing.

my favourite parts: (not in order of appearance)

1. in the middle of war, saigo drop a tin bucket and had to take it back, it's really small thing, it's just a damn tin bucket, but he risk his life and nearly get killed in taking it back. people who's in the middle of the war really don't have a normal sense anymore. he is very close to get hit by missile, yet he smile when he can take that thing back.

2. when saigo is being called to war and his wife said "please, don't take him" and the woman who came with the soldier got angry and said "it's not the time to say that. everyone is sending their husband and son."

for me, it sounds like "I am suffering so why won't you?"

3. when the japanese captured an american soldier and ihara said "did any of you ever become an american soldier?"

then he talked to the heavily injured american, saying he had been in america for quite some time (because he's an olympic athlete) and the american got relaxed and started to talk to him too. they really don't have any reason to hate each other. not even one.

4. aa~ too many... I can't pick anymore.

I'm surprised that I didn't cry. but I left the theater with a pain in my chest. it's quite intense, so when I walked out and walking in the rain and saw the very peaceful japan around me, it's...a different feeling...

anyway, our Ninomiya is doing absolutely amazing! It's not Nino at all, it's 100% Saigo. now give him the oscar please! (my wishful thinking). ok, my heart still have a hole in it so I have to see Nino smile to assure myself he's somewhere in Tokyo doing fine.

 

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so now I'm waiting for boku imo and haikei, chichiuesama. anyone wants spoiler on that two? (of course not!)

末恐ろしい

the title above read 'sue osoroshii' means terrifying (makes people scared) 

they use it to comment on nino. in very good terms.

H magz comment on iwojima and said the one worth attention is Ninomiya Kazunari. with his act, the whole story can come alive. through saigo's eyes, we can really understand what happened in that battle. if it wasn't for the perfect act, the movie may not be good at all. thinking that now he's already been able to do such a complete act, what would he become from now on? 末恐ろしい。

I AM SO PROUD OF NINO and can't wait till 9th.

H magz December

I've just found H magz December. It's Nino in Tekkon and Aiba's profile.

aiba's serious side

 

he is absolutely cute!

 but please forgive me for the very uncomfortable view. it's too much trouble to mend it since the computer is very slow and I have to save it and change it and everything. please just save it and do whatever you like.unless anyone can tell me easier way?

I love computer, just don't know how to deal with it.

 

 hate to say this, but aoi is cute and they look good together. HAVING BEEN IN A FILM WITH TWO OF THE BEST MEN I KNOW IS NOT VERY NICE. IT MAKES PEOPLE JEALOUS. AND LOOKING GOOD WITH BOTH OF THEM DOES NOT MAKE IT NICER EITHER. IT MAKES PEOPLE EVEN MORE JEALOUS.

 

(ok...take a hold of yourself...)

 

Aiba's article is too long, I'll get back to it later, now I'll just post the member's opinion:

1. which Aiba's play you like the most?

Nino : Shinjuku Shonen...something... he's been through a difficult times back then (busy etc)

Ohno : "tsubame no iru eki" . it's the first time I see Aiba in stageplay.

Sho : tsubame no iru eki. it's an important work for him and he can strongly expressed that.

Jun : tsubame no iru eki. I remember he really put big efforts. it empressed me.

 

2. what is the main charm in aiba as an actor?

nino : he can't do the same thing...eh...he didn't do the same thing.

ohno : revealing itself the way it is.

sho : he's just came one on one with the character. it's not only in acting though.

jun : the way he became very serious (in acting)

(ok, I got totally lost here. are they talking about the things only actor understand?)

 

3. if you are a producer, what kind of role would you want aiba to play?

nino: documentary! kingdom of mushigorou (I don't know what is it)

ohno : an emotional role. (yes! I want to see that too)

sho : a character that living his live suffering and carrying big burden on his shoulder.

jun : a young man who really love to run but he became unable to run. how's that?

(so the bottom line is everyone want to see aiba in a suffering character?)

 

4. tell us about aiba's both charm and weak point.

nino : sometimes he can't read the situation but pretending he can.

ohno : sometimes he becomes a boy.

sho : he brings happiness in high tension to the people around him...but sometimes that high tension hits him back.

jun : 1. the brightness 2. tennen baka (naturally baka)

 

5. what is it that aiba has and you don't have and therefore makes you jealous.

nino : he's popular. (you're popular too, baby)

ohno : his long legs.

sho : the expression of gentle feeling. if he's happy, I don't know why but we got happy also.

jun : his bright character. I don't have that. (but you're VERY nice. that's enough)

 

6. what is it you want aiba to change (like bad habit or anything)?

nino : nothing. (I melt hearing this answer. he really likes aiba, doesn't he?)

ohno : walking around changing room only in underwear.

sho : please answer your mail the time you receive it. I got surprised by sudden, incoherent mail, like "sushi is fine"

jun : everytime doing live he always stands on different places. and then become surprised and makes mistakes on very easy choreograph. it's fun, though.

 

7. what had changed in aiba since debut until now?

nino : slowly, he became an entertainer.

ohno : sense of responsibility.

sho : (I'm sorry, I can't understand this one. I understand the words, but I don't understand the connection. gosh, both my brain and my japanese ability couldn't catch up with him. these are the times I felt really stupid.)

jun : saying his opinion and start doing things. I think he does that more lately.

 

8. if aiba is a color, what color is he? (in japanese: nani iro?)

nino : a lot of color. (man, I love this boy!) (iroiro)

ohno : constantly changing. I always think like that seeing him.

sho : yellow. vivid and bright.

jun : orange. his image character is yellow but I think it's orange.

 

I've only translate two of their member's opinion, but looking at the words they use, I have my own opinion about them:

nino : I can sense honesty directly from his words. something that comes right from his heart.

ohno : he says first things that cross his mind.

sho : I appreciate how he carefully pick the words to describe his friends in the best way, but he uses difficult words and expression. sorry if I translate his part wrong. I'm not a genius myself, and if I ever had a chance to talk to him, I'm sure I'm going to say "eh? could you repeat that?". just look what kind of words he use in News Zero (well, he has to do that as a newscaster though). Sakurai sama: what does that have to do with me? You're the one who's lack of study!

jun : he is neutral and I felt like hearing someone commenting on his classmate.

aiba : he's cute and innocent and everything you expect from aiba masaki.

 

 

 

Ijime (bullying)

First of all : please someone tell me that I'm being overworried or something, but I see Nino in Best Artist 2006 and he got thinner! I want them to get some rest, please! they're as adorable as usual, and Jun with his killer hips and aiba just colored his hair again I think, but I can't stop looking at nino and felt light heart attack.

 

I read in arashi.vox that nino had been bullied in his elementary year and it still affect him up until now.

I wonder what would he thought seeing news lately. the bullying problem is hot here. students committed suicides, others sent letters to Monbukagakusho and said they would committed suicide or kill people who bullied them. a lot of talkshows talking bout this, I even discussed it in my class.

bullying happens all around the world, but what happened in Japan is very complicated. those who were bullied usually have something different with others, but now, bullying occurs without reason. they also bullies those who are good, have nice attitude, got good marks, you just never know when will be your turn. those who were bullied can instantly turn to bully others. I got confused thinking about this. they came to their teacher and teacher told them to be patient. friends try to stop but they would be the next target. people don't answer to you, put chalk in your lunch, have people saying "you're not human", "this world doesn't need you, go and die" to you everyday, finding your shoes and books missing, etc. if that's the case, how could you ever want to go to school? and what kind of people do those kind of schools produce?

yesterday one suggestion came up : DO the students that bullied others, cause right now the situation is too kind for them. but it was rejected. and I think the problem is not that simple. others said that teacher's position is too weak and they want more rights to do physical punishment. again, this is a very complex situation, and personally, I don't think beating anyone would solve any problem.

 

Japan's fashion (a report ...?)

I've only been in two cities in Japan, Tokyo for a week and Nagoya now for almost two months.

the fashion is just...like what we see in dorama.

In tokyo, it's hard to find a girl without boots. all kind of boots. japan is paradise of boots. and for those who always follow latest trend, the girls are looking exactly the same. kawaii.

and the boys...they're cute. in Nagoya, it's easy to find really cute people. looking at boys around me, I even think some of Johnny's member don't qualified to be called 'cute'. of course it's only about outer look. what I love the most is when I'm in tokyo, the hotel I stayed in was located in working neighborhood, and I can see youngsters (20-30) in their neat black working suit, but I can still feel the fashion seeing their hair and accesories.

in a special class with Japanese students, we talked about Japan's fashion trend, and some of them said that as a youngsters, they do feel the pressure to always keep up with the latest fashion, to have brand goods, and one of the girl said that her friend called her and said she was very worried of not getting any friend since she has no brand goods. my university (Nagoya University) is a bit different and I can see people who don't really dressed up here and there, but they said, if you go to tokyo, you have to dressed up.

Then there's host and cabaret girl. When I first came here, I don't really know about host, but now I define them as "those really kakkoii people with long legs and porcelain face and dragonball-like hair". dangerous for your wallet though. sometimes I met them in train or in the city's centre (I don't know how to say that in english), mostly on Sundays, since I don't go out often (my dormitory isn't in the city's centre).

something that start to bother the students I met in class is how the generations under them really become fashion-concious from very early age. in that class, most of us were born in Showa period (80~ I don't really sure about the year). right now is Heisei period, and they said, the generation born in Heisei is different with Showa. well, generation gap is the same all around the world, but kids really dressed up here. parents also dressing them up. but again, it's what I see, I don't know how is it in other region.

 

It's COLD!

I've never leave Indonesia before I came to Japan, and talk about how Indonesian am I, it reflects perfectly in the way I could'nt stand cold.

While many Japanese still think it's not very cold for (almost) December, I already use electric carpet and electric blanket. Even my Japanese teacher in Indonesia got worry about me. She's Japanese and she knows how bad winter can be for a first time Indonesian.

It's funny that I used to complain about Indonesia's hot weather. But that means I had reached one of my goal.

One of my goal in living in Japan is to realize the near things I won't see clearly in my country. How much I love warm weather, how important it is to wake up in the morning and smell mother's cook, how I miss my brother, to know that my father with his "just do what you like in life and don't miss any chance and don't look back" is really the best father I could ever have, and mother...the way she's everything for me, what else could I say about mother?

I came here to see those things clearly, to cherish them as much as I can, to treasure them in my heart since I know it will end someday. the bird is learning to fly and the warmth of its nest gives all the courage it needs.

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anyway...

in yesterday's Utawara:

the guest is Gospellers ( I like them) and one of them was questioned what does 'woman' means to him, and he said "winner", in a way that in a relationship, woman will always be the winner, it is after he sail the white flag that the relationship can begin. (I love this answer)

host : Matsujun, what does 'girl/woman' means to you?

Jun : kyouzai (teaching experience), cause I felt being taught a lot by them.

other guest : I wonder what they teach you...

and...probably it's just me, but Jun gave such an ecchi smile there.

 

If only the same question being asked to all Arashi, what would they say...?

what do they think bout Nino?

I am waiting for a special class, but I've found something that makes my day.

After read tokki's post about nino as an actor in H magazine november, I looked for it in nearby conbini but I couldn't found it. sakki I've just take a walk and all this time I could find it in my UNIVERSITY BOOKSTORE!! how stupid...

apart from the article, it has little questionnaire about how arashi members think bout nino. I only have one hour before my class begin so sorry if I translate it wrong since I'm in a hurry (yeah right, just say you don't have enough ability).

I'll make it per-question (sorry for taking so long, I got sick yesterday):

 

1. which of nino's play you liked most? 

Aiba : there's kanji I couldn't read, I'll get back to this tomorrow.

Captain : play (in stage), again I can't read kanji. it's something bout James Dean. because nino don't look like nino.

Sho : Ao no Honoo, the scene when he hold the bat and moving towards the step father. that kind of face would be remembered.

Jun : Stand Up! I like comical character like that. and he also imitating our manager back then, so it's funny.

2. what is the most attractive thing about nino as an actor?

 Aiba : I can't call it sensitivity...his way of accept something is...sharp...or...rich. something I felt even not in plays.

Captain: his ordinary/usual part.

Sho : he has both naturalness and deepness.

Jun : he said "hakanasa" which have many meaning, like something vain and uncertain and short-lived.

3. if you are a producer, what kind of role would you want nino in?

Aiba : a fantasy would be great, right? (typical aiba) even if the role is not human, I think he can handle it.

Captain : a very high tension role

Sho : someone who goes insane. Surely he can do it alright, but I've never seen it before so I want to see it.

Jun : dame-dame na yaku ( I'll ask my japanese friend what is it )

4. teach us about nino's charm and weak point!

Aiba : his hands! we talk about it today. his hand is like hamburger! (anou, aiba...since when people have hamburger-like hands?)

captain : his hands. they're round and cute. (ok, I'll see his hands closer next time)

Sho : sabishigariya (can't stand to be alone), but actually he can be alone as well. and it's hard for him to tell his true feelings.

Jun : small and cute hands. his fingers are short and cute. but...a bit like hamburger.

5. what is it that you don't have and nino has it, therefore makes you jealous?

aiba : his tension. he has a very large range of tension, from very low to very high. it means he can see things both in low and high tension. (someone please help me understand this)

captain : he can spin his head really fast. (I probably translate it wrong, probably he meant nino can think very fast)

sho : he can look to people's inner side. he understand others very fast.

jun : very fast to change his mode. sometimes just before shooting he plays games. I can't do that.

6. which part of nino you want him to correct/change?

 aiba : he always want to see manga that people are reading. though he knows I'm reading it, he always say "lend me!lend me!" like an elementary school boy.

captain : an important part, touching people's butt.

sho : always plays with ohno. It's fun so I love to see them doing it, but what would other people think seeing them doing that...I kinda scared. anyway, it's omoshiroi. *cough* jealous * cough*

jun : I used to get irritated seeing him playing games (like just before work or smth), but now it's alright.

7. which part of nino changed the most since debut until now?

 aiba : I'm always with him so even if there's anything change...ah, he eats outside a lot (not in home)...(aiba...)

captain : basically, nothing change.

sho : he can let out his poisonous side in TV. like really sharp comments.

jun : among us, I think he's the one who doesn't change much.

8. if nino is a color, what color would he be? and why?

aiba : blue? he wears blue a lot in Juniors time, I couldn't take that off my mind.

captain : yellow. he wears yellow a lot (in concert).

sho : the color of water. beautiful but has some hakanasa (vain, uncertainty, something that would dissappear quickly). it's a part of him that can be seen if you listen to the songs he wrote.

jun : I can't think of any...I thought about this question for one whole day but nothing comes to my mind.

 

wow, rainbow ( I get dizzy myself reading it, sorry).

and also there's a bit of comment from Kiiroi Namida's director about Nino:

Ninomiya's act is very natural, the way he get in to the character smoothly, without much trouble he would like "so here, I (nino's char) would think like this, right?",  it's not something everybody could do.

personally, from the very first time I had decided to put Ninomiya as main character, because he fit to be the pillar of the story, I couldn't think of anybody but him.

I think he's also the pillar in Arashi. Ninomiya seems to love Arashi a lot. there's time when we talk about Aiba and Ohno, and that time Ninomiya look so happy. Now I kinda understand how much Ninomiya love Arashi.

 

*Nino I love you! (get down on my knees and apologized to Sakurai-sama)

haa...I want to have that kind of friends too. I've already had some but we're so far apart now.

to be able to look happy only by talking about them...I wish I could see his happy face too.

 

anyway, last Monday night I saw Arashi no Shukudai kun and it turns out that our boys is just...boys...

if I'm not mistaken, they were talking about growth, nino said in his junior school day, one of his friend suddenly fall when walking like hurting his legs and said " It hurts, it hurts, I'm growing"

and then the guest said it's breast for woman which apparently our boys had some interest in it.

Oh-chan : when do they start to grow? how?

Nino : I used to think about it, if you always sleep in certain position, won't it be unbalance to one side, what would happened to the size then? is it the same?

Aiba : when do you start to wear bra?

so it goes, the "I don't want to talk about this in television" Sho-kun tries his best to stop, " can we stop it?" "don't say that you two (ohno and aiba)" " why won't you two take over from now."

they're just usual baka boys.

MatsuJun : I AM YASASHII

 It's not really a big thing, it's just I saw Utawara yesterday and the guest is DJ Ozma and they talk about the things people thought he is but he actually isn't

Jun get asked about it too and he said "If you look it like this,when it comes to human relationship people used to think I am cold (tsumetai), but actually I am really really nice (SUGOKU yasashii)."

Everyone in the set including Akko and Ayaya and the guests (not DJ Ozma) murmuring "no..."

Jun said to one of the male guest "It's real, right? in backstage we're very close"

and he responded...I don't hear it properly, it's something about Jun's going to punch him later.

Then Jun face him and said " I AM NICE RIGHT?"

guest : " yes, yes, he is very nice..."

Well, Jun, regardless whether you're nice or not (not like anyone care anyway), you are totally HOT!

Really made me surprised, that is the best haircut you've got so far. I love it.

 

I am sad and feel guilty that I couldn't post any video or audio cuz here I use univ's computer and I don't have computer on my own. There's trouble with univ's computer so I couldn't watch any video either. Feels like hell not to be able to see any Arashi-related lately apart from TV Show.

anyway, tonight is Shukudai-kun, I'll try my best to stay awake.

Arashi no Shukudai-kun

I read some blogs and forums that said Arashi no Shukudai-kun is boring. Well, I've seen it 3 times and I think it's fine. But it's because I understand Japanese. And apart from that, if the guest is the 'right' person, I think they'll crack a lot.

Probably the format of this program doesn't put Arashi in the center of the show, I mean, it's only 30 minutes (including commercials and video), and there're 7 persons in total. There's no way everyone could speak enough. Plus, of course they have to focus on the guest. Captain very rarely speak, unless someone asked him. He just lie there beside Nino, just to show that he exist. Nino is very fast to 'shoot' when the timing is right.

I am interested in Japan's entertainment world in general, so when someone I see a lot comes up in the show, I even tend to focus on the guest than our boys.

When I watched it, I only hope they invited interesting guest and then treat the show as a Japanese lesson. Oh, and screaming to my "lately become hotter than ever that made me worried is it because you found someone or anything" Sho kun.

On one side, it may sound weird, but I am happy that our boys get paid for sitting and talking casually and sometimes doing minor experiments. Maybe it can become some rest time for them than doing something heavy. though I hope captain would speak more.

On the other side, of course I would love to see them in one long show where everyone cracking nonstop. But I can wait.