Geez, destiny is CRUEL!

I've just read in Matsusaya.vox that Aiba went to a zoo in Yogya, it was my grandparents place and sometimes I went there!

no, god, please, don't give me such an irony. I work my ass off and went to Japan and can't see any of them, and they (at least one of them) went to my place? 一切殺してください！

I think it's impossible for me to see the winter concert. I ask a lot of Japanese friends and they say Johnny's related concerts's ticket is usually hard to get, even for Japanese. but I haven't given up yet for the spring concert and summer concert (if exist).

next year is my last chance.

I thought about many things and after I go back to Indonesia, the chance is almost impossible to go back to Japan.

first of all, going to Japan is difficult. for me it's either scholarship or marrying Sho. second, I think after all of this Japan experience, I want to move on to something new. I've been crazy about Japan for over six years. I had reached everything I wanted and it's time to wake up from my beautiful dream and start taking responsibility as an adult.

going back and graduate and hope to secure a job. 今まで、好きなことしかやらない私は、そろそろ夢から目をさめなきゃいけないよね。

any of you ever feel like that? graduating will be the end of one period of my life, and I'm both scared and excited about life after that.

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[投稿情報: Jun.M]

>一切殺してください！
そんなこと言っちゃだめだよ〜〜><
Don't say things like that !
Watch your mouth><
Japanese have a word "言霊/kotodama" means "verbal soul". It's meaning like
this "When the word is out, it belongs to another". So my granma used to say "You should say only positive words, right? or it will turn to realiy."
Don't give up ! Please hang in there!

[投稿情報: Dúnadan]

I know what you mean about the whole "Aiba-chan so close yet so far". He was in Singapore too for Tensai and no one knew. Then he went back with the thinking that all Singaporeans are Indians *really want to smack his head* XD

By the way, you have to get in line to marry Sho :P

[投稿情報: tokki]

hinagiku-chan, don't be so upset that you missed aiba-chan ne!  Even if you were at your homeland that doesn't mean you will get catch him too (you know how mysterious these Tensai trips are)....and you'll probaby be kicking yourself more when you are actually in that area and have missed him ^^

And I think you are a very brave girl to make your dream come true by working hard to go to Japan ne.   Be very proud of yourself because you will not regret achieving this while you are still young ne (looks at self and cries a bit X__X)

Good luck on getting the Dome tickets, with so many seats in this venue, I am sure you can manage to find a ticket for the concert!!  Must celebrate this big moment w/ our boys ne ^^

[投稿情報: hinagiku85]

sorry ^^!...

it's just that Arashi is so addictive that I don't know what to do and probably if I see them with my own eyes then I could realize they are really exist and not some kind of illusion and then I could think of them as a human too then I could be normal again.

well...not that I really want to back to normal anyway...

[投稿情報: aishoni]

try asking sumoboy! she got one fc ticket for january... can't remember..

pm her!