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Himitsu

Currently in love with Mr Children. Can`t stop playing their 「 HOME 」 album.

 

 

If Aiba`s secret is Nino`s underwear, my secret is probably my dream. My Yume.

Unlike Aiba, I told people about it, but I rarely refer to it as my one true dream. I usually describe it as `that thing I would love to do if there`s a chance and even if there are none it`s fine anyway regarding how difficult it is`.

 

This is clearly showing how much I got scared to admit my dreams. Because when I failed something I consider precious, I will weep and sob and wail all together. I won`t have to do all that and feel the pain if I don`t admit that thing is precious.

 

But recently, I feel that not admitting that one very important thing may make the process of getting it harder. Because when you realized you strived so hard for something, you know you love it and you know you`ll feel teared apart when you lose it. So you start trying to casually pursue your dream as if a dream is something casual. It is not.

 

There will be temptations, things that looks like they`re more important than your dream will come out of nowhere. Then there`s the `I can`t do it` stage where you were forced to see your limitations and that mountain you used to see is actually a stone in front of the real mountain.

 

So the very first step for me is to admit it. Yes this is my dream and No I`m not going to be okay if I can`t reach it. It`s big, it`s impossible, it`s suffocating sometimes and for me, it`s the most important thing right now.

 

 

Ps : No, my dream is NOT 「 marrying Sho 」

 

A Little Distraction

My friend gave me a 2008 January Duet to distract me from those horrid linguistic books (read : to ogle at).

 

Here`s what I thought interesting,

 

Morimoto Ryuutarou :

 

In this group (HSJ) I`m the youngest, so the `wish to be spoiled` came out just like that. Nevertheless, HSJ is a representative group that was chosen among lots of Juniors.

So, I already prepare to face whatever it is that`ll happen to us.

 

Ryuutarou`s message to his brother (Shintarou, also a Jr) :

 

To Shintarou that has always been with me.

My closest friend and rival.

Between us, I reach the dream of debuting faster, but I still have one more dream.

Which is to form a unit with Shintarou and release CD.

My next dream is to release CD with my brother.!

For now, let`s work hard though in different places.

So, let`s stop our sibling-fights. (laugh)

 

 

This boy is a 6^th grader(or 5^th ?)! He reached his dream! He already set a new dream!

My dream when I was in 6^th grade was to marry Andy Lau ( 笑 )

 

山口さん、おめでとう！

I just knew from サミ～`s vox that TOKIO`s Yamaguchi is getting married.

Omedetou!!!! (while secretly heartbroken, hahaha)

I like him instantly when I see him in Premium Shokura VCR my friend recorded for me, when he talked about TOKIO`s tour in livehouses.

His voice is so soft and just by that small talk he opened my eyes about TOKIO`s personality, albeit a little. I liked a lot of their songs but I never `look` at them too much.

That made me remembered one of Taichi`s interview in which he said once in his not-so-good phase as a member, he drank with Gussan and just by one sentence from him, Taichi broke into crying.

何だろう．．．

ぐっさんって、男だなあって感じ。

他のジャニーズは男じゃないってわけもないけど、TOKIOの中でも、ぐっさんは一番。

私もさ、普通はもっと可愛い系が好きじゃん。

あれはたぶん、「将来誰にも頼れず、自分のことしっかり自分で面倒みて、相手の男の人は別に好きなことをやれば良いから、可愛い系で良いや」というきっかけかも。

ただ、一方、もし頼るんだったら、半端なく山口さんのイメージみたいな人が良い。

「あなたの言うことなら、フンフンってうなずいても良い」と感じさせる人と会いたい。

 

ちょっと深いな今日（笑）

お久しぶり、みんな！

I`M BAAAACK!!!!!!!!!

 

Erm, so… well, I love this account too much to lose it. So I guess commenting here and there and post once in a while won`t be too much trouble.

 

I had a very tranquil time this past 6 months. Everything felt so trivial yet so fulfilling. School is the same as always, I`m starting my final assignment now until at least May. I`m teaching Japanese for part time :

Here`s my students during one of the test

 

Photo-0038

 

 and… basically that`s it. Just doing everything in my pace. 

 

計画はあるし、実現するつもりだし。とらなきゃいけない道が見えてきたけど、焦らずにいきたいと思う。確かめなきゃいけないこともまだ幾つかあるからさ。もうすぐ固まる気がするけど。

 

Aaaaand,

Maan-chan! I MADE IT!!!!!

 

I PASSED JLPT LEVEL 1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Never thought I could pass this year. ^o^b

Have to say thanks to Sho-kun, since I stuffed myself with non-text KCE for Listening lesson.

 

That`s it for now, I hope everyone have a good week!!!!!

 

 

Starting all over again

1^st Post from Indonesia

 

Just got back from Idul Fitri (Moslem`s Holy Day) holiday.

Before the holiday, 2 days after I arrived, I went straight to university and joined the class. I was 1 month late.

If everything can go smoothly, I`ll graduate in 2 semesters.

Quite surprisingly, I was `okay`.

I thought I was going to have the worst reverse culture shock in history or something considering how attached I am to Japan.

…

…

Well, that happened the first few days ^^;

The only person I can `talk` to in class is Lydia, others are my juniors and I was raging about the very poor internet connection and the jumbled transportation system (Japan`s subway is truly a gift from heaven) and how hot my campus is and I don`t watch TV programs anymore because a lot of them are crap (am not being un-nationalist here, it`s just really the way it is) and none of the things contains a particular 5 boys I miss like crazy.

 

But then the holiday came and I spent it in my grandparent`s house and it was a quiet village with rice paddies and trees and river and suddenly I think I might be recovered.

My brother quickly robbed my Arashi goodies and put everything in his mp4 and browsing through magazines and asked `Can you get me this?`, pointing to Ueto Aya.

 

Right now, I have plans and hopes and for the mean time, it`s enough that I HAVE them. No one knows what 2 semesters can bring me.

Let`s be optimistic!!!!!!!

 

For now, I`ll listen to Atari Kousuke and Arashi and remembering what Shishido chef in Bambino said in the last episode :

 

イタリアで、俺や遠藤さんが学んだことはなあバンビ、この仕事を続けていく限り、立ち止まっちゃだめだということだ。学ぶこと、知りたいこと、見たこともないこと、そんなもんや山のようにある。一人の人生じゃ足りないぐらいなあ。

それから、絶対人のせいにしないことだ。自分がうまくいかないからって、人のせいや、状況のせいや、社会のせいにしないことだ。だって俺たちは、自分で選んだんだろう、この仕事。だったら、誰のせいにも出来ない。「うまくいかないのは全部自分のせいだ。」と思えば、シンプルだ。

 

“What I learned in Italy, is that, as long as we`re in this job, we can`t stop moving forward. To learn, to want to know about things, things that you never see before, those kinds of things are still mountainously a lot. It`s not enough with just one lifetime.

And, to not make things as other people`s fault. Things aren`t going well, is not because of other`s fault, circumstance`s fault, or society`s fault. We chose this job by ourselves, aren`t we? Then, we can`t make it anyone`s fault. Things aren`t going well, everything about that is our own fault. It`s simple if you think about it like that.”

 

 

But I`m sure I`m still going to be a regular bitch and blame the world occasionally on rainy days :P

 

Ganbare myself!!!!!!

一年間、有難うございました m（＿ ＿）m

Last post from Japan

It`s been a great year.

My last week in Japan is crazily busy and much much more crazily fun.

It was like:

Sept 22 : with host family in Chita-shi, 23 : Osaka, 24 : Osaka, 25 : Cleaning my room in Nagoya then go to Tokyo, 26 : Tokyo then came back to Nagoya and start cleaning again, 27 : Last cleaning, closed bank account and postal account, closed phone account, dorm administration, etc etc etc.

And now everything`s over and I`m a bit dizzy over lack of sleep and I`m just sitting and looking at my HUGE suitcase. Inside that thing is the most important things in my `which one should be saved first if the plane crash?`- priority list, a.k.a arashi CDs and goodies.

Osaka cons were amazing, but I finally can say goodbye to Japan after my trip to Tokyo.

To YOU who made this all possible, THANK YOU!!!!

She brought me to places I want to go since forever.

Kagurazaka, Canal Cafe, a cafe where Jun and Shun once supposedly went together, chou oishii nabe restaurant, and...and...KEIO!!!!

Inside shinkansen to go back home, I cried for 1 and half hour, all along Tokyo-Nagoya and had no tissue with me so I covered my face with a green towel ><

The conciousness of `ending` was just too much. But yeah, shinkansen is very useful, 1 and half hour is a perfect range of time to cry your eyes out and I stopped automatically when we entered Nagoya.

I might cry again on plane, that is if I don`t busy wanting to throw up.

I can still remember the first day I arrived, Yuki-kun who helped me brought the futon upstairs, the first city-tour that got me thinking `Japanese walk waaay too much!`...

Now, I should go out to conbini and get myself some eclairs and chou cream and lemon tea and tuna mayo onigiri and eat and some sleep and tomorrow will (have to) be a new day ^_^

Hina`s Q&A about 2 days in Osaka

Day 1 :

1. What`s your reaction seeing Sho-chan`s new hair?

Eh, Horikita Maki? then, KAKKOIIIIIIIII ><

2. How about their new outfits?

A lot of outfits are sparkly! Arashi look like diamonds. Other than the rainbow curtain costume they wear before singing Love Situation, everything`s perfect. The best in 8 years.

3. Who is The Prince of Pee?

Aiba-chan. He told a story about how he couldn`t go back to Tokyo for MS since there was taifun and he got stuck in Nagoya and it was very difficult to find a hotel becoz everyone were stuck in nagoya too. when they finally got a room, Aiba-chan already couldn`t bear the need to pee and ask the bellboy

`O tearai wa doko desuka?` `where is the toilet?`

`shouben desuka?` `do you want to pee?`

Although Aiba-chan felt very weird for the bellboy to ask too straight like that, he really couldn`t bear any longer so he spurted

`hai hai shouben desu!` `yes yes, I wanna pee` in big voice

what did the bellboy said then?

`iie iie, `shoumen` desu.` `no no, I said `at front``

Of course, Nino-chan happily took this story as a start to call Aiba-chan Oshikko Ouji (Prince of Pee). Which continued until the 2nd day too ^^

4. Did you enjoy seeing Ohmiya kissed?

Yes :p

5. Did you like Aiba-chan`s dango-tied hair(he tied upper part of his hair into a ball)?

Very much.

6. Did you like Ura Arashi?

I LOVE Still.

7. Who fly for Fight Song?

I think becoz of Dome`s construction, they can`t do it together in the middle, so they did janken and only 1 will fly in the main stage. today the lucky? boy is Sho-chan. His face during the whole process is precious.

 

Day 2 :

1. How`s your reaction seeing Sho-chan`s solo up close?

O. Period. (that`s the dirtiest I can ever go in describing it >///<)

2. How did you like Fight Song today?

I love it how Captain lost the janken and had to bounce and Aiba-chan tugged his pants before captain fly, so he fled with his pants pooled at his ankle and his black tight underpants fully exposed. Sho-chan laughed until he couldn`t stand.

Only to Captain they can do this. Or Aiba-chan maybe. Imagine if they did this to MJ-sama? the only that will fly is someone`s head.

3. Did you enjoy seeing Ohmiya kissed *again*?

Yes.

4. What came into your mind looking up at them in the moving stage?

Here is the perfect place for me! UNDER YOUR FEET ><

5. Did you cry?

How can I NOT cry when they sang Sketch? I`ve been giving up hope to hear it live. Infact, just before the con began, Yuki-chan and me talked about what do we want to hear for ura arashi. Yuki-chan picked Snowflakes, to complement Still in 1st day, and I told her how for 2 years I want to hear Sketch live and how I would surely cry if they did.

So, the second MJ announced it`ll be Sketch, tears already falling from my eyes.

6. Your favourite part?

Duh? Like, everything! These are my last concerts before going home T_T

 

After the con

What did you do when you found out you`re late for your bus home(damn me and my shotengai-lingering habit) and it was the last bus to Nagoya and you only have 8000 yen in your pocket?

well, first, stunned. Then went to buy 6.700 yen shinkansen ticket and Starbucks`s white chocolate mocha.

 

疲れたけど、最高に楽しかった！

チャンスあったらまた遊ぼうね！

Bye bye

Am listening to Seaside Bye Bye.

Nagoya never felt this empty before.

I just send my two best friends who are going home.

Petya to Bulgaria and Antara to India.

If only I can tell you with words of how amazing they are.

How they changed my life, how they told me I`m in the right path.

They are two of the smartest girls I`ve ever met. But more than that, those two teached me a lot about being a free soul. About doing what you want and the f*** with other things, while taking responsibility of your choice.

My last trip to Kyoto with Petya broke something in me. I`ll never be the same again. And on the way home, talking about life and ourselves and the strength we need to face the future, I know these are the moments I`ll locked forever in my memory. I love you Petya. I really do. How many times had I said that?

The little things that stucked in my head. Watching Love Actually and Bridget Jones, and Howl`s Moving Castle. Talking about Jonathan Seagull, lingering inside Village Vanguard, hanami in Tsurumai Park, the breeze we felt while cruising Biwa Lake...

Petya and me used to call ourselves `one of us`. Of course Antara is `one of us` too.

Japan is precious to me like that.

I look around my room and there`s still mess everywhere despite of I kept saying will clean it since two months ago.

Maybe, just maybe, in my head I think, if I don`t clean it, I don`t have to go.

But Petya and Antara had left, and there`s a hole in my heart, and Nagoya felt so empty, and I have to move on.

Am going to start cleaning again...

 

" I don`t know if I can ever see you again T_T"

" We will. With some people I just know."

 

「take care of yourself..nd be in touch. またきっと会えるよ。love you...」

二宮和也・演技派

Yappari.

I love

Nino the actor.

No matter how many times he said `I`m an idol, not an actor`

I can`t help it Nino-chan.

I love you the most

when you act.

Hanakimi Last

WATCH IT!

WATCH IT!

WATCH IT!

It`s soooo good, I laughed a lot ^^

Toma-kun o tabetai~

Ooops *got severely bricked by Dun-chan*