Starting all over again

1^st Post from Indonesia

 

Just got back from Idul Fitri (Moslem`s Holy Day) holiday.

Before the holiday, 2 days after I arrived, I went straight to university and joined the class. I was 1 month late.

If everything can go smoothly, I`ll graduate in 2 semesters.

Quite surprisingly, I was `okay`.

I thought I was going to have the worst reverse culture shock in history or something considering how attached I am to Japan.

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Well, that happened the first few days ^^;

The only person I can `talk` to in class is Lydia, others are my juniors and I was raging about the very poor internet connection and the jumbled transportation system (Japan`s subway is truly a gift from heaven) and how hot my campus is and I don`t watch TV programs anymore because a lot of them are crap (am not being un-nationalist here, it`s just really the way it is) and none of the things contains a particular 5 boys I miss like crazy.

 

But then the holiday came and I spent it in my grandparent`s house and it was a quiet village with rice paddies and trees and river and suddenly I think I might be recovered.

My brother quickly robbed my Arashi goodies and put everything in his mp4 and browsing through magazines and asked `Can you get me this?`, pointing to Ueto Aya.

 

Right now, I have plans and hopes and for the mean time, it`s enough that I HAVE them. No one knows what 2 semesters can bring me.

Let`s be optimistic!!!!!!!

 

For now, I`ll listen to Atari Kousuke and Arashi and remembering what Shishido chef in Bambino said in the last episode :

 

イタリアで、俺や遠藤さんが学んだことはなあバンビ、この仕事を続けていく限り、立ち止まっちゃだめだということだ。学ぶこと、知りたいこと、見たこともないこと、そんなもんや山のようにある。一人の人生じゃ足りないぐらいなあ。

それから、絶対人のせいにしないことだ。自分がうまくいかないからって、人のせいや、状況のせいや、社会のせいにしないことだ。だって俺たちは、自分で選んだんだろう、この仕事。だったら、誰のせいにも出来ない。「うまくいかないのは全部自分のせいだ。」と思えば、シンプルだ。

 

“What I learned in Italy, is that, as long as we`re in this job, we can`t stop moving forward. To learn, to want to know about things, things that you never see before, those kinds of things are still mountainously a lot. It`s not enough with just one lifetime.

And, to not make things as other people`s fault. Things aren`t going well, is not because of other`s fault, circumstance`s fault, or society`s fault. We chose this job by ourselves, aren`t we? Then, we can`t make it anyone`s fault. Things aren`t going well, everything about that is our own fault. It`s simple if you think about it like that.”

 

 

But I`m sure I`m still going to be a regular bitch and blame the world occasionally on rainy days :P

 

Ganbare myself!!!!!!

Comments

[投稿情報: Dúnadan]

Welcome home hina-love!

[投稿情報: aiLaMarie]

oh it must be really hard for you...missing japan...etc..

but i think you can make it..just make yourself busy and concentrate on finishing school..and go back to the land of our 5 boys after.

gambare!!

[投稿情報: Zai' Dayz]

okaeri nasai!!! ganbatte ne in finishing school

[投稿情報: Huxley]

Welcome back!

[投稿情報: zekeshocks]

Welcome back!  I missed our chats terribly!

[投稿情報: shohei]

Gambare!!!!

[投稿情報: non-angelical]

Eh~~~

I know! I know! I know the feeling...
The last time I went back I also went @#$%^%$# to see the television show. And the internet connection. And the totally messed up transportation!!!

It really is not THAT bad, as you come to realize on your trip to your grandparents' house. But I know that there will days when you'd feel like you want to curse and wish to be back. It's just natural.

So...Hang in there! Ganbare! p(^-^)q

Keep your hopes and dreams...they're what's keeping people moving on!!

[投稿情報: kunyit9]

It's pretty late, but welcome home ^^

wishing you the best finishing school, ganbatte!
we miss you, miss your interesting post^_~
do updates ya, we'd love reading your thoughts again

see you around ^____^v