Bambino (I thought it was 10 episodes?!)

Ah, how I love this dorama.

I was surprised when they showed the clips for next week, I thought it`s only 10, not 11.

For me, this week`s theme is the best. I (and I`m sure most of you too) can totally relate to it.

I felt lucky to be able to feel that kind of `highly absorbed to something`. The happiest times in my life until now was the period when I first learned Japanese.

Days passed so quickly, I swallowed every grammar taught with eagerness, I did every tasks and tests with utmost effort, I love staying in the library after class, just look at books that I couldn`t read and dreaming someday I`ll read them, seeing dorama and wondering when can I go to Japan. I was so happy. that was memories I won`t trade with anything.

I`m happy now, but there`s nothing like `a beginner`s heart` 初心。

I have the same feeling for 就職(job).

Like if I ride on trains at night, when salarymen (and women) come home from work, being in the same train with them, I like to observe them silently and a warm feeling will come to my heart.

"I wonder for who do these people work? some of them might do it for supporting the family they love, to give their children proper education, probably to save up and marry someone, or to find the meaning of life, or to pay for their obsession *cough* Arashi *cough*, or just because it`s what they want to do forever."

Everyone works for a reason, and I find it kinda beautiful.

When the time come, I will work and put my life in it. Taking it seriously because this is what I chose and I would have to face this world with this path I had chosen.

God, I`m so scared of the future.

But also thrilled to have the possibility to experience `the beginner`s heart` all over again. Not only the happy part though, I saw things, I saw my dad, I saw my brothers and sisters, I know working is not easy. But for every happy moments I get, I am willing to feel the pain.

完全に少年の話し方！まいや、こんな時期も楽しめなきゃ！

Comments

[投稿情報: Doraemon]

I am being touched by what you are written.. specially the " beginner's heart "
yes.. I have been on and off for job and school...
Beside the fandom of idol or anything... I enjoy the way  from " nothing to something" ... like learning new thing such as Japanese..
I hope one day when I can fully understand Japanese, and still remember
the " beginner's heart "
thanks

[投稿情報: peluca]

thanks for this post...this r the type of inspirational writings i need to kick my butt and start new projects...i have been lazying around too long without having an actual, tangible and realistic goal...thanks again!

yeah...i also want to learn japanese + mandarin...lets see if i can get the classes first :D 

[投稿情報: ♡ カリス]

I feel you~ It just feels so disappointing when you go home and feeling dead tired after work, but once you remember you're doing it for a reason... I guess you'll feel all good inside.

Thanks for reminding me.

[投稿情報: 夕葉]

Ahh Happy-chan you always inspire me to want to try harder. Just when I think I am trying my hardest I want to do all the extra stuff as well.. I know I always complain about being a bad student to you, but I know that I try really hard and worry about being better all the time as much as I could do. Even if I am not the best out there.. I can always try harder and at least I can be the best that I, personally, can be.

一緒に頑張ろうよ！一緒に精一杯やったら、出来る。会ってよかった！愛してる！(・∀・）／

[投稿情報: GiAn]

"The happiest times in my life until now was the period when I first learned Japanese."

~dear hinagiku-san...i can really feel the sincerity and emotions in your words : ) and i totally agree with you about how learning something we like can bring us so much joy ne? Mmmmm, when I get discouraged in learning the Japanese language...i shall remember this lovely post of yours...  

All the best for your new beginning!!! The best is yet to be!!!!